Showing posts with label sad. Show all posts
Showing posts with label sad. Show all posts

Should I call you friends... or Jerkasses

Allo, peeps. How are you all? 

I'm doing meh at the moment, which is not how I want to feel. T^T. 

What has me so meh, one may ask? My so-called college friends. 
Well, I dunno if I should call them friends. They're all kinda assholes. 

They love to judge me of all of personality aspects. For those who know me (and it's sad that the people that I talk to online, know more about my true personality than my college friends) know that I'm a very homebody type person and fun and wacky. 

Well, they don't see that cause they're very... for lack of better words jerks. They love to party and are extroverted. I'm not a party goer and I'm introverted. It doesn't mean that I don't like to socialize, but it's hard when you don't know where to meet people like myself at college. 

Because I like to stay in my room and watch anime, play video games, or talk to peeps on Facebook, I'm a hermit who doesn't like to do anything to them. 

They think I don't want to have fun because I don't drink. And think that I'm not enjoying life because I don't have a boyfriend and haven't had sex yet. (And yes, I'm a virgin and proud of it).

It's rather hard to deal with people who are always ready to judge me since I'm not like them. I much rather be friendless here and talk to old friends and new friends that I made on the internet. At least, their judgements are based on the me that they really know and not someone that the "friends" that I have here. 

(;A;)

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Anyway, onto other matters, I got a Wacom Tablet. I bought myself the Bamboo Capture Tablet. 
It's really amazing. Especially when I'm getting better at drawing and what not. :D. Hopefully, I'll get to the point where I can be like some of the great Youtube artists. 

Anyway peeps, till next time. Chao!

First Rant- Misunderstood

Quiet. Loner. Homebody. Socially-inept. The feeling of no one really taking time to understand you when you're in a new situation. Right now, I'm at this college base camp where high schoolers stay at a campus for five weeks and earn up to six hours of college credit. It sounds really great....

Yet, there's other problems that factor into it.

To me, I feel like all of the other girls see me as this shy, overly quiet girl towards them. (Yet, I'm loud and obnoxious when it comes hanging with guys). It's like every single girl here has a best female friend that they hang out with on a daily basis.

However, I feel like I'm the loner.

Even my roommate has her friend over in our dorm rooms, hanging out with her. I really don't get the chance to be alone and just think about everything that goes on.

I really wish people would see me for me. I'm the super different black chick, who loves shopping at Hot Topic, loves anime, and has J-Pop, Hip-Hop, Techno, and R&B all on the same playlist.

I dunno, I'm about to leave, and now I'm learning more about how others are sorta like me and understand some of the pain of people not understanding you. I mean I know I'm not gonna be the girly girl who loves make overs and dresses, but I'm my own damn person and will always be me.

I have three days left, and even though I feel somewhat misunderstood, I'm gonna miss all of my friends here, guys and girls. See ya.