A Sweet Serenity

Quiet. Loner. Homebody. Socially-inept. The feeling of no one really taking time to understand you when you're in a new situation. Right now, I'm at this college base camp where high schoolers stay at a campus for five weeks and earn up to six hours of college credit. It sounds really great....

Yet, there's other problems that factor into it.

To me, I feel like all of the other girls see me as this shy, overly quiet girl towards them. (Yet, I'm loud and obnoxious when it comes hanging with guys). It's like every single girl here has a best female friend that they hang out with on a daily basis.

However, I feel like I'm the loner.

Even my roommate has her friend over in our dorm rooms, hanging out with her. I really don't get the chance to be alone and just think about everything that goes on.

I really wish people would see me for me. I'm the super different black chick, who loves shopping at Hot Topic, loves anime, and has J-Pop, Hip-Hop, Techno, and R&B all on the same playlist.

I dunno, I'm about to leave, and now I'm learning more about how others are sorta like me and understand some of the pain of people not understanding you. I mean I know I'm not gonna be the girly girl who loves make overs and dresses, but I'm my own damn person and will always be me.

I have three days left, and even though I feel somewhat misunderstood, I'm gonna miss all of my friends here, guys and girls. See ya.