A Sweet Serenity

Allo, peeps. How are you all? 

I'm doing meh at the moment, which is not how I want to feel. T^T. 

What has me so meh, one may ask? My so-called college friends. 

Well, I dunno if I should call them friends. They're all kinda assholes. 

They love to judge me of all of personality aspects. For those who know me (and it's sad that the people that I talk to online, know more about my true personality than my college friends) know that I'm a very homebody type person and fun and wacky. 

Well, they don't see that cause they're very... for lack of better words jerks. They love to party and are extroverted. I'm not a party goer and I'm introverted. It doesn't mean that I don't like to socialize, but it's hard when you don't know where to meet people like myself at college. 

Because I like to stay in my room and watch anime, play video games, or talk to peeps on Facebook, I'm a hermit who doesn't like to do anything to them. 

They think I don't want to have fun because I don't drink. And think that I'm not enjoying life because I don't have a boyfriend and haven't had sex yet. (And yes, I'm a virgin and proud of it).

It's rather hard to deal with people who are always ready to judge me since I'm not like them. I much rather be friendless here and talk to old friends and new friends that I made on the internet. At least, their judgements are based on the me that they really know and not someone that the "friends" that I have here. 

(;A;)

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Anyway, onto other matters, I got a Wacom Tablet. I bought myself the Bamboo Capture Tablet. 

It's really amazing. Especially when I'm getting better at drawing and what not. :D. Hopefully, I'll get to the point where I can be like some of the great Youtube artists. 

Anyway peeps, till next time. Chao!

Sup peeps. Yeah, I know. I haven't updated in ages. 

Even though my blog sucks! =w=

Anyway, my life has been hella busy and well.... my roommate (of last year) has been pissing me off even more than usual. 

She talks to be only when she needs something, since the chick doesn't own the basic dorm life necessities. I also have a car this year (rocking a 2002 White Buick Rendezvous) so she thinks I'll drive her anywhere she needs to know. Pfff. This chick is cray. 

Oh, I got to visit my best friend at ETSU. Her campus is hella nice and they have suite like hotel rooms. Unlike my prison cell. We played Slender: The Eight Pages, and just relaxed. It was awesome. 

Oh, it's also my October Artist Challenge. What I'm suppose to do is draw something every single day for the whole month of October. So far I'm four days off. T^T. But here are some samples of what I'm doing. 

That's it for now peeps. Maybe you'll see a more another post that's not a couple months later. Chao!

SUP PEEPS!

I'm finally back!!!!!!!!

Yeah, it's been a while and I'm sorry about not updating. 

BUT, I got some awesome updates. 

First, I'm back in college, living the college lifestyle. It's been good, having some extra monies to spend and stuff for school. 

It came with a shit load of books, but it's an awesome program. Plus, I can eat whatever I want to eat. 

I also bought some anime series with work money. 

I bought a 3DS. This is one of the best fucking things that I have ever bought in my life. (And it's all thanks to Kingdom Hearts 3D: Dream Drop Distance)

And lastly, I also bought some makeup.

 I was in family dollar and this mini palette was a dollar. It's pretty pigmented for cheap makeup.

 Then I bought Maybelline's Dream Fresh BB Cream in Deep. It's really nice so far. It's not heavy and it blends really well with my skin tone. It's also not heavy like other makeups.

'Sup Peeps. 

Man, like always, I haven't updated this wonderful little thing. BUT, I'm slowly gaining followers which is hella awesome. 

Anyway, this blog post is about why I don't have a lot of black friends. 

Yeah, I know that sounds really weird coming from a black girl, but yeah, most of my good friends are white or other. 

Q: Chibi-chan, why don't you have many black friends! （≧▼≦；)

 Ah, what a good question! (I'm so lame right now). The reason that I don't a good amount of black friends is because black girls and guys are unbelievably rude and play this ghetto like act. For me, there's a difference between acting ghetto to fit in and really being raised in such an environment. 

Maybe, it's because I didn't grow up with a lot of black kids, since I lived in a mostly white area, plus I wasn't raised with race, but how people act. 

Q: So Chibi-chan, you really don't like black people?

Actually, I do have black friends. Many of them, however, are not the unbelievable stupid acting type of person. They're really cool and they aren't like many of the stereotypes that most black people act like. I also had a few black friends from High School and they were the same. They worked really hard, don't act like a nigger (yeah, I used that word), and loved alternative type of styles, musics, etc. 

I'm pretty sure that people many black people don't like me because I'm not like them. I know that ideal is really stupid, but it's like mass mentality. I'm not a fan of mainstream music, I love foreign music, like Latino and Japanese music (what a mix right?), I'm quiet, and love anime and manga. People really don't accept that because it's different. I've learned over the years, that many people of color don't like different things since it's out of the norm and equals change. 

Q: What spurs all of this rant/type of thinking Chibi-san?

Well, for me, my college ends next week and usually hang at this place called the Black Cultural Center. Now, I usually don't hang out at places like this because of the above reasons, but I wanted to try something different this year.  (;¬_¬) Plus, all my classes are 5 minutes away, making it faster to get there. 

However, there is one issue. Out of all of the times that I've been here, one a couple of people have talked to me. I'm a naturally quiet person, so it's hard to make friends with people are extremely extrovert. But, there are many people that don't talk to me and will address all of the other people at a table, and not say one word to me. That's really hard for someone like me. 

Also, a lot of them think that I'm "bougie" (meaning stuck up and thinking I'm better than everyone). I'm really not like that. I'm just really quiet and people haven't learned to accept me for me and it really sucks. I dunno if I'm gonna come up here next semester, but maybe one day it'll change, since there is a good amount of black kids that hate coming up here for the same reasons. 

Anyway, that's it for another rant from me! Chao

Damn, it's been a hella long time since I've posted anything.

I'm doing horribly in my blogging.

But, a lot of crap has been going on in my life, good and bad. So, I'll start off with the good. 

Here is a picture of my beloved Macbook Pro, Shiraiyuki. The cover is a custom made image by me and I'm loving it so much. The design is so sleek and amazing, and everything runs so smoothly.  I also got an amazing computer cover for it. 

 Yeah, so I've been using and relearning how to do everything since a Mac is not a PC and I'm a PC Windows wiz. 

Now for the not so great. 

Um, I had to drop my programming class because 1. I was failing with a 49, and 2. My professor couldn't speak proper English, so that was hard to learn with a class like that. I'm taking it again in the fall, so all will be good. 

As much as I love friends and friendship, there is a time where I love to be to myself and alone. Well, one of my friends likes to hang over here at our dorm and sleeps over a lot. Well, that all fine and dandy, but there's a point where I just want some time alone for myself. I haven't been able to go on Fakku (I blame Kira (dollieai.blogspot.com)), I haven't been able to clean cause she sits, lounges and sleeps in my area (and it looks a hot mess), and I can't fully vent my life's issues on Tumblr anymore cause she follows me and asks me all of these questions. 

Man, I liked it better when I was a hermit and didn't leave the room.~

Well, that's a quick update of what's going on in my life. I will be posting a lot more, now that I've forced myself to blog more and more. Chao peeps~