Showing posts with label friends. Show all posts
Showing posts with label friends. Show all posts

Should I call you friends... or Jerkasses

Allo, peeps. How are you all? 

I'm doing meh at the moment, which is not how I want to feel. T^T. 

What has me so meh, one may ask? My so-called college friends. 
Well, I dunno if I should call them friends. They're all kinda assholes. 

They love to judge me of all of personality aspects. For those who know me (and it's sad that the people that I talk to online, know more about my true personality than my college friends) know that I'm a very homebody type person and fun and wacky. 

Well, they don't see that cause they're very... for lack of better words jerks. They love to party and are extroverted. I'm not a party goer and I'm introverted. It doesn't mean that I don't like to socialize, but it's hard when you don't know where to meet people like myself at college. 

Because I like to stay in my room and watch anime, play video games, or talk to peeps on Facebook, I'm a hermit who doesn't like to do anything to them. 

They think I don't want to have fun because I don't drink. And think that I'm not enjoying life because I don't have a boyfriend and haven't had sex yet. (And yes, I'm a virgin and proud of it).

It's rather hard to deal with people who are always ready to judge me since I'm not like them. I much rather be friendless here and talk to old friends and new friends that I made on the internet. At least, their judgements are based on the me that they really know and not someone that the "friends" that I have here. 

(;A;)

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Anyway, onto other matters, I got a Wacom Tablet. I bought myself the Bamboo Capture Tablet. 
It's really amazing. Especially when I'm getting better at drawing and what not. :D. Hopefully, I'll get to the point where I can be like some of the great Youtube artists. 

Anyway peeps, till next time. Chao!

Holy Shit, It's been a while.

Damn, it's been a hella long time since I've posted anything.
I'm doing horribly in my blogging.
But, a lot of crap has been going on in my life, good and bad. So, I'll start off with the good. 

Shiraiyuki <3


Here is a picture of my beloved Macbook Pro, Shiraiyuki. The cover is a custom made image by me and I'm loving it so much. The design is so sleek and amazing, and everything runs so smoothly.  I also got an amazing computer cover for it. 

 Yeah, so I've been using and relearning how to do everything since a Mac is not a PC and I'm a PC Windows wiz. 

Now for the not so great. 

Um, I had to drop my programming class because 1. I was failing with a 49, and 2. My professor couldn't speak proper English, so that was hard to learn with a class like that. I'm taking it again in the fall, so all will be good. 

As much as I love friends and friendship, there is a time where I love to be to myself and alone. Well, one of my friends likes to hang over here at our dorm and sleeps over a lot. Well, that all fine and dandy, but there's a point where I just want some time alone for myself. I haven't been able to go on Fakku (I blame Kira (dollieai.blogspot.com)), I haven't been able to clean cause she sits, lounges and sleeps in my area (and it looks a hot mess), and I can't fully vent my life's issues on Tumblr anymore cause she follows me and asks me all of these questions. 

Man, I liked it better when I was a hermit and didn't leave the room.~

Well, that's a quick update of what's going on in my life. I will be posting a lot more, now that I've forced myself to blog more and more. Chao peeps~


2012 Craziness

Yay, another blog post for 2012. Super excited that I'm doing good with the blogging for this year. 

But man, it has been one hell-ave year so far. (Even though it's only been one week since the New Year). 
Where to begin?

So, for the first week of the school year, I've had a "guest" over.
One of my friends got kicked out of her home by her mom. This was her mom's seventh or eighth time kicking her out of her house, but this was the first time she came to my house. She was texting me that her and her mom got into a fight and that her dad was yelling at her. She left the house to let out some steam and they told her that since she wanted to leave, that she can come back some other day. Then she and her boyfriend got into a fight and he left her outside in 20 degree weather.

I told her that I was going to get her and that she can spend the night at my house. When I got there it was starting to snow. Can you freaking believe that. It was snowing and they were going to let her stay outside for the whole night.

So, she stayed at my house from Sunday to Wednesday, leaving Wednesday night. Her boyfriend picked her up. Well, at 2'oclock, we get a knock on the door, saying that my friend got into a domestic disturbance with her mom and that she formally got kicked out. So, we had to go and meet the police to get her. She then stayed until Sunday.

I originally didn't have a problem with her staying with us, until she didn't take any showers or baths while being here. She started to smell so bad and my mom and I started to hint on how bad she'd smelt. Then, her mom took her cellphone away and she had to use mine to make calls. Well, she started to get too comfortable with my cellphone, calling her boyfriend, her dad, her grandparent..... it got to be too much. Plus, she started to change the channels on the living room TV, not allowing my mom and I to watch what we wanted to watch. Crazy right!!!!!!

I know she was in a tight spot, but it was just to crazy. But that was the beginning of my wonderful new year. Chao, peeps!

First Rant- Misunderstood

Quiet. Loner. Homebody. Socially-inept. The feeling of no one really taking time to understand you when you're in a new situation. Right now, I'm at this college base camp where high schoolers stay at a campus for five weeks and earn up to six hours of college credit. It sounds really great....

Yet, there's other problems that factor into it.

To me, I feel like all of the other girls see me as this shy, overly quiet girl towards them. (Yet, I'm loud and obnoxious when it comes hanging with guys). It's like every single girl here has a best female friend that they hang out with on a daily basis.

However, I feel like I'm the loner.

Even my roommate has her friend over in our dorm rooms, hanging out with her. I really don't get the chance to be alone and just think about everything that goes on.

I really wish people would see me for me. I'm the super different black chick, who loves shopping at Hot Topic, loves anime, and has J-Pop, Hip-Hop, Techno, and R&B all on the same playlist.

I dunno, I'm about to leave, and now I'm learning more about how others are sorta like me and understand some of the pain of people not understanding you. I mean I know I'm not gonna be the girly girl who loves make overs and dresses, but I'm my own damn person and will always be me.

I have three days left, and even though I feel somewhat misunderstood, I'm gonna miss all of my friends here, guys and girls. See ya.