Separation

So, I'm finally posting this because I accept what's going on in my life. 

For some background info, my parents have been arguing more and more over this summer, especially in July. It started with mundane things like my dad taking a picture with this woman on Facebook to him blocking my mom on Facebook. I thought they were going make up and take everything like a joke, but then it just got worse and worse. 

For a while, two weeks to be exact, they wouldn't even talk or look at each other, making it awkward to be around both of them. With my mom and I being very close, she started talking about what was going on and how she started to think that my dad wanted to be single like all of his friends (both of his close friends are divorce). She started hinting that they may get a separation, but I didn't really take it to heart. 

Well, at the beginning of the month, my mom told me that my dad wanted to get a separation. 

Yeah, shit got real for me. At first, I tried not to be upset with anyone and not to show any sad emotions. Well, like always, my bottled emotions got too much for me to handle and I broke down. It was hard to hear because I love both of my parents so much, though my dad for the past couple of months hasn't been acting like a dad. 

I knew this would be better for my mom because she needed to live her own life and not worrying what my dad was or wasn't doing on his own time. It was just really hard to hear. I'm still trying to deal with pain of the separation because my parents need a strong kid. 

It only sucks because I'm starting my first year of college, and my mom is going to be living alone for the first time in 20 years. So I'm definitely gonna be worried for her and having to hold down my classes. 

I know hopefully everything will get better. It'll be different, but will get better. Chao. 
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