Holy ****: An Update

I dunno if anyone still follows this blog, but....

IT'S AN UPDATE!

So yeah. It's been a damn while since I've updated this blog at all. I've been more on Tumblr than I have with this blog, since it's a little bit more interactive than blogger. 

But yeah, life has been interesting for me. I mentioned this on Tumblr, but I almost got into some trouble with my job at school. There were times when I clocked in to work from my dorm and walk to my job (which was a five minute walk). She told me that it was fraud and "reported" me to the Dean of Students (I dunno if this really happened because my school hasn't sent me anything, not that I'm wishing for it). 

I managed to pass all of my major classes with A's and B's. And I got an apartment for next semester instead of living in the dorms with communal bathrooms. And I'm also an admin to Harajuku Snapshot (a Japanese fashion lovers group on Facebook) and a writer to Digidoujinka (a Digimon Doujin group). 

This is Harajuku Snapshot





So, it's been okay. My next goal is to lose some freaking weight this summer. Because of all of the drama I've been through, I've gained the most weight that I ever have. So, I'm doing a Fitspo (a fitness tumblr blog) and gonna work out and eat healthy this summer. And because I'm going into Turbo Fire and hopefully get to a healthier weight. And also develop a sense of style too.


Well I'm out for now and hopefully will update this blog more often. Ciao~

Happy New Year's + 2013 Resolutions


Wow, peeps, wow. 

2013 is coming for me in an hour and a half. I really can't believe it. Damn, I feel so old now. 

I remember a time with Gameboy Colors, Floppy Drives, and CD Players. Guys CD Fucking Players. >.<

Anyway, I'm hoping for 2013 to be a whole lot better than 2012. My year up to when my Sophomore year began was great, then all the shit happened, but that's now in the past. 2013 is a new year and a new me. I managed to complete 4 out my 7 2012 New Year's Resolution and now I'm about to plan for 2013's Resolution. 

1. Stop being walked all over at school. I'm a naturally nice person and it's really hard to deal with people take advantage of me. I hate it and it ruins my personality and mindset. 

2. Follow my TurboFire workout. It last for 4 months which is how long my Spring Semester is. 

3. Go back on my Food Lover's Fat Loss system along with TurboFire. I lost a good amount of weight when I was on it and I gained all that weight back from my stressful situations at school.

4. Um... this is a maybe and will try to do, but I want to get more fashionable. Buy more wigs, keep my skin better, maybe some circle lenses..... Just be able to be cuter and techy at the same time.

Well, that's my resolution peeps. I hope you all do well in the new year. Chao~

My Semester in College.... so far


WARNING: SUPER EMOTIONAL POST


Sorry once again peeps. I haven't been doing much lately and should've updated this much earlier. 

But, I've been lacking motivation in my life. Mostly because of social issues. And this is kinda my rant about it. 

Sorry, if it's boring and totally useless, but this is just something that I need to rant about in my life. 

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So, I'm in my second year of college, a sophomore. I decided to room with the same girl that I did last semester, even though we did have problems. Mostly because she made me feel bad that I wasn't going to room with her originally. So, me being a people pleaser in the HUGEST SENSE decided to room with her. 


This semester started out okay. We were talking and enjoying the beginnings of the semester. The friends that I made last year hung out with us a lot since we all lived in the same dormitory. It was great, until I decided to host a movie night, watching Battle Royale. 

We were to all have dinner that was made by my guy friend. My roommate and another friend of ours were to go get the other things for us to eat like sides, deserts, and we even got Sparkling Cider so we can take shots for when someone dies (since me and my friend don't drink). 

Well, that's when the problem began. 

After the movie, we all decided to hang out and play a casual game of Never Have I Ever. I ended up winning because I'm a pretty innocent person when it comes to doing weird, kinky sexual things. 

I started getting things like I need a boyfriend now cause I'm not living my life. Or that because I haven't had sex that I wasn't experiencing my life to the fullest. Or that I'd be a wild freak in bed and that my personality now is just something that I'm faking to hid what I'm really am. 

I was also told that I needed to change certain aspects of my personality to attract guys. They told me that I was more noticeable when I wore makeup or wore cuter outfits instead of my usual jeans and graphic tees.

I have to say, that was the first time, someone ever tore me down mentally. Never had I been told that my appearance was keeping me from meeting a guy would like me for me. 

Being the hopeless romantic that I am, I always told myself that a guy that like me for me and that love would happen naturally. Not something that I forced upon myself. 

Yet, I was told that I had to force a boyfriend to experience the true college things and life that I was missing. Like my own sexuality was something that I valued. It was like I have to give it up to experience things. 

Yet that's not me. 

It started to get worse and worse. I was told that because I don't smile when I walk around campus that it made me look apprehensive and people didn't want to talk to me. Or that I wasn't trying to be social towards other people because I'm was claiming to be a shy person. 

God, that hurt even more. I'm super empathic to people. My emotions are one of my biggest issues in life. Like even now as I type this I'm crying because of the pain. But to be told these things was like someone driving a knife into me.

Literally, from October to now, I've been depressed. I've literally laid in my bed from October to now watching anime, on tumblr, just avoiding person, because I truly believed that I had nothing going for me. For me, it's hard to bounce back after being verbally torn apart from the people that you call your friends. 

Yet, the people who we're always told that probably won't talk to anymore after high school, are the people who helped me the most. Even people that I haven't even met are people that I can truly cherish. 

It wasn't until I got a compliment from one of my best friends that I finally knew that this had to stop.

"You're a strong, beautiful girl!" 

I literally broke down. After hearing all of the things that is wrong with you, it was like a breath of fresh air. It was reminder that yes I have faults, but I also have strengths to myself as well. After that, all of my close friends were telling me all of the things that me, well me. 

I was reminded of the girl who was able to befriend all types of people. I was the anime loving girl who wasn't afraid to voice her opinions. I was the person who would take the painful emotions of other people and make their her own so they wouldn't feel alone. I was the girl who would go hell and high water to make sure that her friends were safe. 

Sure, adults told me the same things, but it was the people who I was the closest too that I needed to hear these things from. 

Why should I care if I don't like to go to parties with music I frankly hate and ghetto ass people? If they were truly my friends they would berate me for that. 

Why should I have to drink to have fun? If they have to be drunk to have a good time, then their something wrong with them. 

I am myself and myself only. If they can't accept me for who I am, then to fucking hell with them. I have a group of people who love me for who I am and that's all I need. 


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I know this post was to start out as a rant, but it was the thing I need accept the fact that I don't need these people and that yes, I have my faults, but I also have my strengths as well. I guess it was the thing that I needed to write to get from weight down on my heart anymore. Sure, they'll prolly be mor tears in the later future, but I refuse to let anymore of this shit get to me. Not when I got peeps that enjoy me for a person. 

So, I like to dedicate this to all of the awesome people that have helped me out and for being awesome throughout my life:

 IRL:

Jessie
Bruna
Kayla
Mathias
Will 
Nick 
Etc (cause I don't want this go do much longer)

Online: 
All my close friends from Harajuku Snapshot like: 
Kira
Teian
Harvey
Ciara
Ree'Ay
etc. 

Thanks and chao~
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Should I call you friends... or Jerkasses

Allo, peeps. How are you all? 

I'm doing meh at the moment, which is not how I want to feel. T^T. 

What has me so meh, one may ask? My so-called college friends. 
Well, I dunno if I should call them friends. They're all kinda assholes. 

They love to judge me of all of personality aspects. For those who know me (and it's sad that the people that I talk to online, know more about my true personality than my college friends) know that I'm a very homebody type person and fun and wacky. 

Well, they don't see that cause they're very... for lack of better words jerks. They love to party and are extroverted. I'm not a party goer and I'm introverted. It doesn't mean that I don't like to socialize, but it's hard when you don't know where to meet people like myself at college. 

Because I like to stay in my room and watch anime, play video games, or talk to peeps on Facebook, I'm a hermit who doesn't like to do anything to them. 

They think I don't want to have fun because I don't drink. And think that I'm not enjoying life because I don't have a boyfriend and haven't had sex yet. (And yes, I'm a virgin and proud of it).

It's rather hard to deal with people who are always ready to judge me since I'm not like them. I much rather be friendless here and talk to old friends and new friends that I made on the internet. At least, their judgements are based on the me that they really know and not someone that the "friends" that I have here. 

(;A;)

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Anyway, onto other matters, I got a Wacom Tablet. I bought myself the Bamboo Capture Tablet. 
It's really amazing. Especially when I'm getting better at drawing and what not. :D. Hopefully, I'll get to the point where I can be like some of the great Youtube artists. 

Anyway peeps, till next time. Chao!

October Woes......

Sup peeps. Yeah, I know. I haven't updated in ages. 
Even though my blog sucks! =w=

Anyway, my life has been hella busy and well.... my roommate (of last year) has been pissing me off even more than usual. 

She talks to be only when she needs something, since the chick doesn't own the basic dorm life necessities. I also have a car this year (rocking a 2002 White Buick Rendezvous) so she thinks I'll drive her anywhere she needs to know. Pfff. This chick is cray. 

Oh, I got to visit my best friend at ETSU. Her campus is hella nice and they have suite like hotel rooms. Unlike my prison cell. We played Slender: The Eight Pages, and just relaxed. It was awesome. 

Oh, it's also my October Artist Challenge. What I'm suppose to do is draw something every single day for the whole month of October. So far I'm four days off. T^T. But here are some samples of what I'm doing. 

Huey Freeman in is Valacian sunglasses, nut hugger jeans and Louis Vuitton driving shoes

I bought two copic markers (since I had a coupon) and is learning how to create strands of hair and shine.

That's it for now peeps. Maybe you'll see a more another post that's not a couple months later. Chao!

College Update & Post Summer haul

SUP PEEPS!

I'm finally back!!!!!!!!

Yeah, it's been a while and I'm sorry about not updating. 

BUT, I got some awesome updates. 

First, I'm back in college, living the college lifestyle. It's been good, having some extra monies to spend and stuff for school. 

So this summer, I decided to get healthy and lost 7 pounds through the Food Lovers Fat Loss System. 
It came with a shit load of books, but it's an awesome program. Plus, I can eat whatever I want to eat. 

I also bought some anime series with work money. 

I fucking love this series

Who doesn't love Alois?


Then I went and did some beauty prepping. 

I bought my first wig. 

It's very animesque and really nice. The color, however, does not match the wig's true color. It comes with three pieces. A short wig, with two attachable ponytails. I love it very much. 
 PS: None of these pictures are edited. 


I bought a 3DS. This is one of the best fucking things that I have ever bought in my life. (And it's all thanks to Kingdom Hearts 3D: Dream Drop Distance)



And lastly, I also bought some makeup.

 I was in family dollar and this mini palette was a dollar. It's pretty pigmented for cheap makeup.

 Then I bought Maybelline's Dream Fresh BB Cream in Deep. It's really nice so far. It's not heavy and it blends really well with my skin tone. It's also not heavy like other makeups.






And to finish this post up, I got a true eyeshadow palette. I shopped at Sephora for the first time and bought this palette. What I really like about it is that the eye shadows are so pigmented and bright, I don't have to put so much on to get the color to show up. It only takes me a couple of brush strokes to get a good layer on. 

It also comes with a mini palette, where you can takes parts of the eyeshadow from the palette box and insert it into the mini palette, for you to take on the go. That's absolutely amazing. I payed $34 for 63 different shades. 

I would show off my eyeliner, but I accidentally left it home, so I can't show off my nice sephora cream eyeliner. T^T





Well, that's part 1 of 2 major updates that I have. I have a clothes haul that I'm gonna be posting up soon.  It's good to be back in action peeps. Chao!



A Liebster Award!


What is the Liebster Award, you ask?

 The Liebster Blog Award is given to upcoming bloggers who have less than 200 followers.

• The Meaning; Liebster is German and means sweetest, kindest, nicest, dearest, beloved, lovely, kind, pleasant, valued, cute, endearing, and welcome. (Awwww..)


The Rules:

1. Each person must post 11 things about themselves.

2. Answer the questions the tagger has set for you plus create 11 questions for the people you've tagged to answer

3. Choose eleven people and link them in your post.

4. Go to their page and tell them.

5. Remember no tag backs!

soooo.. here goes :)
1. I absolutely love Sailor Moon. It was my first ever anime and just seems to be absolutely perfect. 
2. I love watching cartoons over reality T.V.
3. I've been able to cook since I was 10 years old. 
4. I'm extremely shy in real life, since I'm so awkward. 
5. I'm lazy and have many things I want to do in life, but is unmotivated. 
6. I love astrology and anything to do with the stars. 
7. I was once I weeaboo in my younger years. 
8. I have an addiction to anything that is Alice and Wonderland based. 
9. I love fairies/faeries. That's why I'm extremely addicted to Winx Club and W.I.T.C.H. 
10. I wanna wear more makeup, but is afraid of what other people would say. 
11. Oh, and I'm extremely random and weird. 
 
 
Here are Ree'Ay's questions. 
 
1. What made you start blogging?
I started blogging because I wanted an online diary. 
 
2. Favourite thing to cook?
Sweet and Sour Chicken with steamed rice. 
 
3. How would you describe your style?
What style? All joking aside, I'm more of the casual punk dresser. All graphic tees and jeans and canvas shoes.
 
4. If you could live anywhere in the world where would it be?
New York. It has a little bit of everything there. Plus, I'm still in the states when I want to go and visit my family. 
 
5. One person you couldn't live without and why (excluding family)?
That's hard. I really don't have a lot of friends. So, no one at the moment. 
 
6. Your favourite way to de-stress?
Read copious amount of fanfictions. 
 
7. Do you play video games & what's your favourite?
YES! Kingdom freaking Hearts (any of them). 
 
8. A book you could read over and over?
Battle Royale. 
 
9. Favourite genre of music or favourite song at the moment?
J-Pop.
 
10. Do you speak any other languages & if no what would you like to learn?
I speak a little bit of Spanish. 
 
11. Play any instruments?
I played the clarinet in middle school. 
 
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